The wolf inside. My shamanic healing experience and what I learned from it #happiness

It was always about the wolf. I was interested in shamanism for a while, occasionally read about it but never actually considered doing it. When I read about Lissa Rankin’s experience with a shamanic ritual in her book The Anatomy of a Calling, I was curious so I searched for shamans in the UK and was surprised to find a couple. It seemed so far fetched, I put it off again.

Recently I’ve been feeling drained of energy, running empty on joy – have I adulted too fast? Is this what life is for a married full time working parent? I lost my creative energy and I did not feel alive anymore. I did not thrive. I felt I needed help. I needed to heal. So I emailed a shaman. Continue reading

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How to resolve conflicts – Ajahn Brahm

Are you working to get better at conflict management, or even better, prevention? Does your blood boil and you lose it, and you wish you could be mindful in that moment where your mind just spirals into the familiar unconscious pattern of rage and you stop being mindful? Here is a new perspective. Ajahn Brahm talks about some conflict resolving techniques he uses as a Buddhist. Bear with the speed of his talk, it is intentionally slow!

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Letting go of what was and accepting what is. Thank you for the lesson @wordpressdotcom

So apparently if like me you are a ‘zero inbox’ person and decide to tidy up, as in empty, your WordPress media library, when WordPress say that they will delete your images permanently, they don’t mean just from the library, they mean from the whole site 😦  When I checked my old posts and realised ALL of my images were missing, I was in shock. Gee, 4 years of content – so easy to wipe out.  Continue reading

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Back on the road, happy nomad

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Travel is a fascinating thing. It is a space shifter that transports you into the new worlds – parallel universes a flight away. After years of parenting, financial limitations, home-work-home routine and being able to travel only as far as Europe, I am back on the road. And this time I am going far.  Continue reading

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Friend lost #happiness

I had a dear friend write to me the other day. It was wonderful. We have not been in touch for a while. I do miss him a lot. He is one of those angels, a friendly soul who you seem to have known forever. But he was also an object of my love addiction for too long. In fact it’s thanks to him that I realised I had a problem. So in the spirit of my ‘no secrets, no lies’ approach and in my on-going attempt to live simply, I came out and told him everything. Via email and Twitter messaging.
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How to fail better and not spiral into anxiety every time you make an ass of yourself #happiness

Recently I screwed up big time at work and panicked. It’s been a while since I experienced such anxiety when your heart races, you get tunnel vision, beat up yourself endlessly and your mind is engaged into a negative thought loop, and you just can’t stop it. The worst part is that after talking to my boss I realised it was not a major catastrophe, but rather a minor hiccup which I should not have dwelled on for so long.

I was unpleasantly surprised and even shocked. Years of meditation and work on making myself calmer, more balanced, thought watching and filtering, working to attain peace and lightness of being – and I spiral into anxiety so easily and over so little? I was determined to never do it again so I created a one pager that summarises the key learnings about failing better and changing your mindset and that I can use next time anxiety rears its ugly head. Temp

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The Meditator #happiness #

With spring comes awakening. Creativity buds and blossoms together with crocuses, cherry trees and daffodils. I can’t draw so I create collages. This one is called The Meditator. In meditation there is an exercise where you imagine that you are plugged into Earth through a golden thread or cable coming out of your heart. I don’t remember where I learned about it but it really helped me through winter. Refill your batteries this spring and create something wonderful for the world to see, my dear nomads!

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